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Pseudo-relationships...The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual understanding. (pwde rin MisUnderstanding.. Malabong Usapan.. and the like.. ) Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo-boyfriends. Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers. Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa. Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.

babae lagi ang lugi.

Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a relationship, you can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his life. You can't expect him to be always there with you. And if you feel jealous of the other girls, you just have to keep it to yourself. Ano ka ba niya para magselos?

Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him? You can't be sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya. Even if you are dying to tell him you love him, you can't. Because you're not sure if he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang. This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship. Or if there is a relationship at all.

Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much? What if you have invested all your emotions and this man hasn't? What if you remain faithful to him, not entertaining other guys, only to find out that he is seeing other girls?

Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan. Kasi sa pseudo-relationship, there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me," hindi "us."

Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi eh. Real pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo-relationship, hindi mo maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin iyun. And you will be miserable, hoping to bring back what you used to have, only to find out eventually that the guy is in another pseudo-relationship with somebody else.

Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and then you'd end up hurting yourself in the process.

excerpt from: http://migzsanmiguel.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/2006/10/pseudorelations.html

4-10

kahapon--movie with jaja @ greenhills. hay init...were obviously bored big time hahaha and im glad ginabi ako ng uwi...we really wanted to kill time =)

today-- wla i just do not know pano nauubos ang oras ko maghapon doing nothing, at magbusy busyhan kahit na nonproductive naman....haist ang boring talaga bored bored bored at ang init init

4-7

im pissed. i thought this day is simply boring, like any other summer days. i dont know why things cant fall exactly as how i wanted it. maybe im running out of patience. i just dont understand why some people can manage to carry everything as if no emotions exist.

i thought then that everything is clear between the two of us, after that day of exchange of confessions re what really the hell is going on. the last time i remember that we talked about this high maintenance shit, i was about to turn my back and leave to untangle all the complications ive been dwelling in for the longest time, but he asked for a chance...a chance to do something about it.

i learned to just enjoy and simply make the most out of waiting, but then, here he comes talking about the future....he includes me, but those were jokes which i dont even know if somehow those were half meant, but all i know is that it pisses me.

i am truly bored, because its hard to manage something like this. keeping a relationship which i cant even call real, having someone whom i cant call mine, exchanging sweet words which i am not sure if he uttered sincerely.

i just cant understand him, that's why i concluded that it wouldnt really be the way i want it. he is always too safe, and the text he sent me a while ago was like a confirmation.

it hurts to keep someone who will keep you indefinitely. i know its my stupidity that i chose this kind of setup, i just dont know up to when i can take this.

buraot

ok isa isahin ang issues.

una sa lahat...third year na ko! yey....nagbunga din ang pagttiyaga ko. well may isa pa kong inaaspire bukod jan...oh well wag n muna yun.

bakasyon na, oh yes panahon upang magsaya, eh peste peste talaga....asan ang happenings! grrrrrrr im so pissed dahil bakit parang hindi itinadhana na magliwaliw ako grrrrrrrrrr.....

well hopefully pagkatapos ng grad ng kapatid ko e makapaglamyerda din ako...shit im so bored sobra talaga. parang mababaliw. i just hate empty vacations! dahil hindi ako sanay ng ganito...

ang daming iniisip dami kong inaalala...personal stuff...kaliwa't kanan na nakakainis n bagay! GRRRRRRRRRRR

punyeta pa isa pa ung lecheng lalake na yun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ANG DRAWING DRAWING NIYA!....BAKIT BA LAHAT GANUN HA?!!!!

I HATE THIS DAY I HATE THIS WEEK. AT SANA NAMAN MAY MAGANDA NG MANGYARI BEFORE I RUN OUT OF SANITY!

buraot

scared

im so bothered by my present medical condition....too many differentials are blowing my mind right now...im really bothered. this one is kinda serious. ill consult a doctor soon =(

3-8

finally its the end of our shifting exams...too early to celebrate, two more weeks of finals...whew. im a bit regretful that i wasnt able to give a good shot with this week's roll of exams...i did not even exert efforts to stay up all night to finish everything. i just messed up. getting lazy reviewing and dragging my ass to answer the questions...*yawn* im too lethargic to be functional haha...

tom would be a bit of a break. im heading off to tagaytay with my mom...oh well unwind slash business get away....not bad

ive ordered that pretty susana bag from ebay...cant wait to have it...haha 11 hours i hope no one would bid me out LOL

uhm, me and esty had a great lunch at nestle creamery. *FULL AND ELATED" lovin the creamy pesto and ice cream cake....and the ice cream cake and the ice cream cake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we want more....

while driving home, we encountered too much traffic! grrrrrr and that annoying guy really pissed me. grrrrr im off to park coz were home and he insisted to pass *yeah he could pass actually* and he gave me that stupid mouthing and make faces damn! HINDI DAW SIYA KASYA! grrrrrrr its the front of our house haler so where else am i supposed to stop ayt! oh well trivial

im glad everyone's home, ill be having a happy weekend.... *STRETCH AND CURL UP IN BED* ^___^